There are many creatures in my Secret Garden the place where only my dear friends are invited.
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Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Pretty in Blue
These two models are sisters. I will find them and post the link. I just love the tenderness between them. I have 3 daughters and this one was done for them.
What the heck
This is one of my favourites. There are times when I wish I could dress up, play the fool and ...what the heck.
Escape
The background that I used for this picture was taken at Disney World. There was a beautiful pool of water, so pretty, clear blue water with beautiful flowers all around the edge. On that particular holiday there was a lot of tension and the only way that I could deal with the impending doom was to fantasize... I often do that.
Kaylene
Kaylene is a friend of mines daughter. She has just finished Matric and has now gone off to university. I did this picture for her when she turned 18. My thoughts while I was doing it were that now that she has finished school and is going out in to the big wide world she needs all the trimmings to wish her well on her journey through adulthood.
Dance like no one is watching
Oh how many nights I wanted to dance, to be free, run wild and not care about anything at all except to be free.
Life is a stage
My life was simply a role I played, but there was no truth in who I was. For all occassions I played the part. Caryl the chameleon, who ever it is that you want me to be, I will do my best, anyone... except the real me.
My Soul Longs After Thee
As the deer panteth for the water,
so my soul longs after thee
You alone are my hearts desire and I long to worship You.
You alone are my strength my shield
to you alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my hearts desire
and I long to worship You.
The Clock Is Ticking
Time is running out and we still hide... why do we hide who we really are and put on a false smile pretending all is well with our soul.
Peace comes so quietly
As peace comes slowly, so my heart begins to lift.
I am not sure where I found this model, please if you recognise her, let me know and I will add the link.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Torn Apart
It is in the darkest hour of being torn appart with the truth, that I make new choices and begin a new journey to heal. We need to experience the loss, the pain, the anger the suffering before we are able to move forward.
Most of my nude models are from Marcus stock
Most of my nude models are from Marcus stock
Private torture
I know that I must find my own truth, but in my solitude I am tortured with sorrow and pain. Reminded that I have the Holy Spirit to comfort me, guide me, but I have lost all faith.
Conviction
My life is torn between confession and seeking forgiveness and wanting those who have hurt me, to hurt in the same way. I know that God is the judge of all things, but I want to see justice served on those who deserve it.
Good and Evil
Good and evil dwells within us... and we have the freedom of choice.
Model Nikki is Dawns daughter Aurora Dreams
Model Nikki is Dawns daughter Aurora Dreams
Fight or flight
The desire to fight back with everything I have with in me.... is overwhelming. I will not be destroyed.
Models Marcus Stock
Models Marcus Stock
Grief
Sometimes the grief is over whelming. I doubt that I will ever recover. My trust has gone and I don't know what tomorrow will hold.
Good days and bad
There are days that I feel positive, I have faith and I have high expectations and there are days when I feel hopeless.
New Beginnings
Vulnerable, afraid.... I will have to learn to trust.
But not before clawing my way through to the other side. The fight for survival is long and hard but I know that I can get there with my determination and the support of those who love me.
Models: Marcus Stock
But not before clawing my way through to the other side. The fight for survival is long and hard but I know that I can get there with my determination and the support of those who love me.
Models: Marcus Stock
A quiet walk
I needed to walk alone with what ever fantasy I could create. All I wanted was peace, the pain to subside...but that would not come for a long time. I didn't care that I was escaping the pain... I had to.
Guilt and Condemnation
Guilt really did consume me. I felt guilty about everything, the choices I had made, my failed marriage, my children and most of all I felt guilty that I had failed God. I knew Him... or I thought I did. I had a relationship with Him, but I continued to make bad choices that would hurt me and my children... I hated myself.
Demonic Turmoil
My fight for survival was immense. I knew that somehow I had to separate the truth from the lies, but it was a struggle that went on for years. I felt naked, vulnerable and my guilt and self condemnation was consuming me.
Yes... this is just one of many.. and I put it in here to draw attention to the plight of others. My art work reveals the long journey to my own recovery. I have a way to express, but what of those who don't?
Yes... this is just one of many.. and I put it in here to draw attention to the plight of others. My art work reveals the long journey to my own recovery. I have a way to express, but what of those who don't?
Two Faced
There were people who came to my home, who I entertained that were 'two faced'. They ate my food, enjoyed my home but had ulterior motives with my husband. Their masks fell from their pretty faces .....
They wait for men to rescue them... even if it is your husband.
Reaching for a dream
My work has changed so much over the years. In the darkest moments I always felt there was something out there that I would find that would bring me the peace that I so desperately was searching for, that seemed to be eluding me.
Vulnerable
The same model that has been used in my header and I know I will use her over and over again, but the message will change in time.
We all feel abandoned and alone at times, washed up on an a lonely beach somewhere that no one really cares about.
The reflection is done by making a duplicate copy turning it upside down, cutting the part that you need and pasting it onto the original. I always erase the duplicate copy down to 20% so that it looks like a reflection and not a mirror copy.
Sea Faerie
All my pictures mean something to me. In this photo the background was taken in Knysna. I was with my ex husband at the time and we were happy or so I thought. I started to do this manipulation because I liked the background, but it made me wonder about the purity of our relationship. I was always trying to please him and entice him and sell my soul for him.
The Forest Whispers
You will see this little dove feature a lot in my work. Might become boring but I love him. He represents the Holy Spirit to me, freedom, peace, healing and most of all guidance.
Model was cut away from the background, hair extensions added, shading on the ground, lighting effect and dove added. Nicky is one of my favourite models.
Model was cut away from the background, hair extensions added, shading on the ground, lighting effect and dove added. Nicky is one of my favourite models.
My Secret Garden
Welcome to my secret garden.
When doing manipulations and using layers one always has to make things look realistic. Remembering where the light source is comming from, shadows and focal point. This was in the early stages so I was still learning how to create a shadow near her feet. She still looks like she is floating, stuck on... I am still learning.
Free Spirit
This was done in 2006 at a time when I was desperately trying to escape the pain I was going through at the time. I had dreams and visions of floating, flying, escaping. It was never finished but I liked where it was going.
Fire Fly
When I was working on this one it made me think of a Fire Fly at night, something I haven't see since I was in Zimbabwe years ago. The same model with different gradient layers. I love this one.
Dawn Wings
Nicky is a beautiful model in the UK. Her mother took this photo before I worked on the manipulation. The blending of her dress into the little rivulets from the water left on the beach made me think of sea fairies.
Earth
When I first started doing manipulations I had no idea how to remove a background so this was one of my earlier attempts. As time has gone by I have learned easier ways of doing things but in this particular picture the background from the model was removed with an eraser tool.
Model: Marcus Stock
Model: Marcus Stock
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